So Tired

[lavenderclavat]

I've been having nightmares almost constantly, but this is the 5th night in a row. It ruins my sleep every time and they've all been about the past. Abstraction is the name of the game with dreams, so it's not like a one-for-one playback. Mostly symbolic like forcing me to beg for help when no one can hear me. Some are so distressing and worst of all they keep taking me back to that house. It is bulldozed, gone, and there's few photos but I still have nightmares about it. I'm still there, roaming the halls, trying to just survive.

I'd give just about anything to stop dreaming. I just want to sleep. I want to close my eyes and sit in the void until I wake up. I don't want to go back to that house I left for a reason. Just let me sleep.